When I made the decision to stay home with my two girls I had no idea that "alone time" would cease to exist. With my older daughter, Quinn,who is now almost 3,I still had "my" time because I was active duty military and went to work everyday. Then when we had Peighton, 10 months ago today, and I started my new career of the Donesticated Engineer that quiet, alone time was gone!
It's amazing some of the time you didn't realize you had before kids. Even just the time to wake up in the morning when it's quiet and peaceful, and enjoy a nice cup of coffee. That is no more! I swear these kids have sensors. "Mommies awake, time to get up!" Well unless you have somewhere to be early in the morning and they decide that day to sleep in. Kids don't get enough credit. I know these two plan this stuff out!
After my first few months of being home I started to miss adult conversation. I started to realize that I was having arguments with Quinn! Worst part, I think she was winning most of the time. Neither one of us were used to being around the other 24/7. Now we couldn't get rid of each other. Then to add to it, she now had to put up with her baby sister, Peighton. Q and I had to find a middle ground or my husband was going to find us both crazy :)
Then I went for my first run. And you know what I found?? Myself!! It was quiet and I could relax. I could think about everything or nothing at all. I asked myself. "Why did I not enjoy running before?" The answer was simple.. I didn't
Have kids.
I love my girls more then life it's self, and it has taken me some time to realize this, but I need my time too! It's ok to need alone time and in the beginning I felt really guilty for wanting my time. But I have gotten over that now.
I look forward to my long run on the weekend because it's My Time!
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